February 10, 2014
Okay, this letter brought tears to my eyes this morning. It is amazing to see the spiritual growth in Collin.
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Long time no email Family!!
Well I am just the biggest slacker in the whole wide world
and the worst missionary when it comes to writing family. It is funny
when you first come out on a mission all you want to do is write and read
emails and the longer you are out the more you just want to read emails and the
less you want to write them. I do apologize for leaving everyone in the
dark and being such a waster but you all love me and I know you will forgive me:)
The last few weeks have just worn me down emotionally, physically, mentally, and
spiritually. I have never felt so tired when I go to bed and and when I
wake up. It's been rough needless to say. Elder Green and I are
working our little missionary butts off and nothing seems to be
happening. Every time we plan a great day something always pops up that
makes us waste half the day to fix the problem. The Lord is really
testing our patience and faith in him. We always have one day a week though
when Heavenly Father has mercy on us and gives us a few tender mercies and they
are so great. I have learned a lot about myself and the power that faith
and obedience have in being a successful missionary. Our progressing
investigator is now at a stand still due to some concerns. Every time we
go over there we bear as much testimony and try to help her understand how this
gospel can bring her the happiness she is looking for but this one concern is
stopping her from doing anything. Elder Green and I come home and just
collapse like Ammon because of how spiritually draining it is. At church
her kids are super loud and we always have to watch them and try and keep them
quiet. So hat off to you cousins and friends with crazy kids.
Mission life is just great fun.
For some reason Elder Green and I seem to teach more kids
then we do adults haha. Out of my 5 weeks of church here I've been in
primary for 3. Two of our investigators are under 12 so that makes it
fun. Hopefully the Lord is just preparing me for the loving angels for
kids I will get and not little devils;) It is great to be around kids all the
time and to teach them. It really helps you break the lessons we teach
down and make them so much simpler. I have learned a lot over the last
few weeks from all the kids I have taught. This was the last week of the
transfer and so we got a new district and zone leader. The district
leader is from Poland and is 1 of the 5 polish missionaries serving around the
world. It is pretty flippin sweet! And the zone leaders uncle is a
seventy haha. I don't know if I mentioned this but the senior couple in
our ward are the parents of the son whose wife and him were in the plane crash
that scared them really bad. Elder Holland talked about her in his talk
in October. I have served and am still serving around so many great
people. Mission life is just amazing and I wouldn't trade it for the
world. I am still a boy but I know that I am changing for the better and
becoming the Man and Priesthood holder that Heavenly Father wants me to
be. For my spirtual thought I want to share a dream I had the other
night. It probably will sound cheesy, but it really affected me and
helped me to see how important serving a mission is.
Here it is...
I had just gotten home from my mission and was finally
settling down for the night after my homecoming. I was making some
cookies with my mom when I started feeling like I didn't serve a long enough
mission. I told my mom and she was surprised I felt that way. I had
served a good and faithful mission and had come back converted to the Lord with
a deep abiding faith. I kept telling my mom that I need to go back and
try again because I didn't do well enough. All of sudden I was
looking at a picture. I was in the middle of it and around me was my
family. I saw how happy everyone was and could tell we were all still
active members. I realized that it was a picture of the future. I
knew that my brothers and I had all served good missions and that my Dad was
still around as well. I then realized that I was married and had
kids. How many or what they looked like I don't, but I knew that I was
happy and loved my family to death. Then all of sudden the picture
zoomed in on me and I saw that I was buff. (I know weird but don't
judge) I could tell that I was successful in all the fitness goals and
career goals I had set and that I was still full filling them. I woke up
right after that and felt at peace. I knew that the photo I saw was my
life how it would be if I served a good mission and remained in the church as a
strong active member. But what stuck out to me more was that I had the
feeling that even though I was serving a faithful mission right now that I
could more and that I had been holding back my talents. That is why I felt
really bad about my mission in the beginning of the dream. The Spirit was
so strong and testified to me that I there were great things in store for me on
my mission. All I have to do is just put my trust in the Lord and let
things happen in his time. I know it sounds weird and all but this dream
is already changing my attitude and work ethic as a missionary. I have a
lot to work on, but am excited to see all the blessings and miracles the Lord
has in-stored for me. I know that Heavenly Father lives and that he
answers our prayers. He has answered my personal and family prayers more
then I can count. He shows his love for my family and I through each
other and the thoughts and feelings he puts into my mind and heart. I
know that the least I can do for him is to serve these next 18 months with all
my heart, mind, might, and strength for him and his lost children. There
is no better way to show our love for our Heavenly Father then serving those
around us and walking in Christ footsteps. I know that Christ died for us so
that we may live. I know with out a doubt that he is lives and will come
again. The time is now for us to prepare to meet him. "Choose
this day whom ye will serve." In the name of Jesus Christ Amen.
Have a great week and love you to shredzz!!
Love,
Elder Wilson
Elder Wilson
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