February 10, 2014
Okay, this letter brought tears to my eyes this morning. It is amazing to see the spiritual growth in Collin.
Long time no email Family!!
Well I am just the biggest slacker in the whole wide world and the worst missionary when it comes to writing family. It is funny when you first come out on a mission all you want to do is write and read emails and the longer you are out the more you just want to read emails and the less you want to write them. I do apologize for leaving everyone in the dark and being such a waster but you all love me and I know you will forgive me:) The last few weeks have just worn me down emotionally, physically, mentally, and spiritually. I have never felt so tired when I go to bed and and when I wake up. It's been rough needless to say. Elder Green and I are working our little missionary butts off and nothing seems to be happening. Every time we plan a great day something always pops up that makes us waste half the day to fix the problem. The Lord is really testing our patience and faith in him. We always have one day a week though when Heavenly Father has mercy on us and gives us a few tender mercies and they are so great. I have learned a lot about myself and the power that faith and obedience have in being a successful missionary. Our progressing investigator is now at a stand still due to some concerns. Every time we go over there we bear as much testimony and try to help her understand how this gospel can bring her the happiness she is looking for but this one concern is stopping her from doing anything. Elder Green and I come home and just collapse like Ammon because of how spiritually draining it is. At church her kids are super loud and we always have to watch them and try and keep them quiet. So hat off to you cousins and friends with crazy kids. Mission life is just great fun.
For some reason Elder Green and I seem to teach more kids then we do adults haha. Out of my 5 weeks of church here I've been in primary for 3. Two of our investigators are under 12 so that makes it fun. Hopefully the Lord is just preparing me for the loving angels for kids I will get and not little devils;) It is great to be around kids all the time and to teach them. It really helps you break the lessons we teach down and make them so much simpler. I have learned a lot over the last few weeks from all the kids I have taught. This was the last week of the transfer and so we got a new district and zone leader. The district leader is from Poland and is 1 of the 5 polish missionaries serving around the world. It is pretty flippin sweet! And the zone leaders uncle is a seventy haha. I don't know if I mentioned this but the senior couple in our ward are the parents of the son whose wife and him were in the plane crash that scared them really bad. Elder Holland talked about her in his talk in October. I have served and am still serving around so many great people. Mission life is just amazing and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I am still a boy but I know that I am changing for the better and becoming the Man and Priesthood holder that Heavenly Father wants me to be. For my spirtual thought I want to share a dream I had the other night. It probably will sound cheesy, but it really affected me and helped me to see how important serving a mission is.
Here it is...
I had just gotten home from my mission and was finally settling down for the night after my homecoming. I was making some cookies with my mom when I started feeling like I didn't serve a long enough mission. I told my mom and she was surprised I felt that way. I had served a good and faithful mission and had come back converted to the Lord with a deep abiding faith. I kept telling my mom that I need to go back and try again because I didn't do well enough. All of sudden I was looking at a picture. I was in the middle of it and around me was my family. I saw how happy everyone was and could tell we were all still active members. I realized that it was a picture of the future. I knew that my brothers and I had all served good missions and that my Dad was still around as well. I then realized that I was married and had kids. How many or what they looked like I don't, but I knew that I was happy and loved my family to death. Then all of sudden the picture zoomed in on me and I saw that I was buff. (I know weird but don't judge) I could tell that I was successful in all the fitness goals and career goals I had set and that I was still full filling them. I woke up right after that and felt at peace. I knew that the photo I saw was my life how it would be if I served a good mission and remained in the church as a strong active member. But what stuck out to me more was that I had the feeling that even though I was serving a faithful mission right now that I could more and that I had been holding back my talents. That is why I felt really bad about my mission in the beginning of the dream. The Spirit was so strong and testified to me that I there were great things in store for me on my mission. All I have to do is just put my trust in the Lord and let things happen in his time. I know it sounds weird and all but this dream is already changing my attitude and work ethic as a missionary. I have a lot to work on, but am excited to see all the blessings and miracles the Lord has in-stored for me. I know that Heavenly Father lives and that he answers our prayers. He has answered my personal and family prayers more then I can count. He shows his love for my family and I through each other and the thoughts and feelings he puts into my mind and heart. I know that the least I can do for him is to serve these next 18 months with all my heart, mind, might, and strength for him and his lost children. There is no better way to show our love for our Heavenly Father then serving those around us and walking in Christ footsteps. I know that Christ died for us so that we may live. I know with out a doubt that he is lives and will come again. The time is now for us to prepare to meet him. "Choose this day whom ye will serve." In the name of Jesus Christ Amen.
Have a great week and love you to shredzz!!